This month has been an exceptionally difficult one. The constant reminder of Mother’s Day in my classroom has just added salt to the wound continuously. I think the fact that I realized early on that I would want to spend this particular Mother’s Day all alone, scared me just a bit. Not knowing truly what emotions it would evoke, I set my decision in stone. I wanted to sit alone in all the memories. I wanted to cry, laugh, and remember all of those moments that made Mama so special, without attempts to coast just above it and just make it through the day. So I gathered up the courage and developed an idea I thought would carry me through the day.
I had considered writing a post that highlighted all the best parts of what made Mama so unique. Then I realized I don’t want to rush this process. One of the things I love most about my Mama Memories is that they come to me just at the exact moment that they should. It is in that instance that I share them through written word. So although I could easily list all the wonderful things that encompassed her, I choose to peel back the layers gradually and through time, just as our lives naturally evolve over time.
Instead, I have filled the day with a balloon prayer, Broadway musicals, pajamas, popcorn, orange slices and a bit of snuggle time with my little, furry man. Mom’s love of Broadway Musicals is what ignited my brilliant plan. I know that there will be tears today; but, I also know that there will be laughs, happiness, and the comfort of memories that nestle close to the heart and fill it full of love.
So as I spend my day being the best mommy I can to my little guy, I will also spend time remembering the best Mama for me that I could have ever hoped to imagine and dream for!! I miss you, love you, mean it, Mama!! Happy Mother’s Day!